Moab

Our trip to Moab was so much fun!! Moab is BEAUTIFUL I took so many "landscape" shots my cousins would be so mad at me :)...(I get this from my Aunt Sharon I guess :) I did try to get the kids in most of the shots but it was so pretty I had to keep taking picutes.

My mom, Frank, Tammy, Tony and his boys, Anna, Cody, Asa and Coen went with us. We went to Canyonlands, arches and the Hole in the rock. The kids swam alot at the RV resort we stayed at and we ate GREAT food. It was a very nice weekend. Scott and I already plan on going back next year to see what we

 missed :).

I am hoping next year Scott doesn't talk on his phone the whole time. I may have to hide his phones on our next trip :)

Good Weekend

Over memorial weekend my two kids and I spent Friday visiting the graves. We went to Pl. Grove, Spanish Fork, Cleveland and Huntington. Then we went down Huntington canyon (one of my favorite canyons to drive because it is so pretty) to Fairview to spend the rest of the weekend with Scott's Family. I made my kids get out and get their picture taken.

It was a littl chilly and as we drove further downt he canyon we encountered snow and they both told me no more pictures they were not getting out... LOL...Camping was fun we staying in our trailer by Scott's cousin Lori. The kids had a great time and Scott even took Kaden and Kenna golfing. Kia had a blast driving the golf cart around.

I had a very nice weekend this last weekend also.... Friday we went swimming at the Holiday Inn Express off of 215 by the ECenter. It has a large slide and Kaden had a blast. My Aunt Lori was in town along with my Cousin Scott's 2 boys. Kaden loves playing with Nick and Ty so it was GREAT fun. Then Saturday was Scott and Mel's reception so more family time! It was great seeing Scott so happy. Mel is a great person and I am so happy for Scott! It is always fun to see his two boys I can't believe how tall Nick is getting!! I love how well Kaden gets along with them. He has only seen them twice but they just love to hang out and they get along so well. MaKia didn't have as much fun because no one was there that was her age. She is to the age that she doesn't like to "hang" with the adult... LOL... Oh well I was glad she at least went to the pool to say hi, she skipped the reception....

The weather was also very nice. I am not ready for the 90's of summer I kinda wanted 70's but oh well it is better then snow right... :)

Only one more weekend before our Moab trip I am so excited to ge away it will be VERY nice to go hiking and sightseeing.... My mom is actually going so that will be fun to have a trip with her :)

Do you ever.... Have you ever...

Do you ever feel like around ever corner there is a tornado? Do you ever feel like the sun never shines in your world and your constantly running into trains??? Do you ever feel like the grave keeps getting bigger and bigger and you can't climb your way out of it no matter how long your ladder is??? Do you ever feel like your all alone and there isn't anyone you can talk to or trust??? Do you ever feel like your BIG world of LOVE and FRIENDS is shrinking smaller and smaller?? Have you ever had your family turn their back on you? Have you ever had someone that you felt cared about you turn on you?? Have you ever talked to someone one just to find out they stabbed you in the back the minute you turned away?? Have you ever felt so lost that you don't think you will ever find your way home?

If you have ever felt this way how did you move on? How do you find peace and happiness in such a dark place? How do you get out of bed and smile at the beautiful world when you feel like your in a never ending tunnel?

Everyday I read inspirational quotes just to wake up. Everyday I look in the mirror and try to count my blessings so I can leave the house. Everyday I look at my beautiful children and remind myself how much love I have for them so I can move forward. Everyday I tell myself it can't get worse just to encounter something else. Everyday I say it will be a good day just to go to bed crying. I keep telling myself the sun will shine and there will be rainbows just to get stuck in another tornado or a longer tunnel.

This post is full of metaphors but I feel like my life is a metaphor and if I keep using them it makes it seem like a book that just continues to be written. A book that will soon have a happy ending. A book that is entertaining someone. Someone is on the edge of their seat waiting for the thrilling conclusion that is sure to come. My book of life is full of ups and downs many many heartbreaks but many good times and happy memories also. My book of life will continue to be written, will continue to be full of heartbreaks and happy memories. I will find my happy ending, I will find the sunshine through this storm. I do have a rainbow waiting at the end. I have to because if I don't I really don't know if I can "deal" with anymore....

Sad Realizations....

So maybe it is because I am his mom but how can you not LOVE this little guy??? Kaden has the sweetest personality and a very tender heart. Yes, he has anger issues but he TRIES so hard to control them. He has even learned to walk away most of the time and he is only 9 years old!!! He is still WAY to young to  understand when he is getting out of control but he does!!! This has to tell you that he is a good person and he is only 9!!! So how can you not LOVE him???? He is my baby and the love I have for him is very deep so I may not see him as others do but I can't understand.....Everyone in his family (blood related) just adores him. Even on his dads side all I hear is how GREAT he is and how much fun he is to have around. Do we have blinders on??? I can't understand how you can not love him.... So this is just me venting this is my blog so I can vent all I want... If you don't like it you don't have to read right :)....

DELETED... I will be nice even though I hate the way Kaden was treated over the weekend I deleted my "venting" to show I am a better person... so if you happen to read it ignore it I will move on :)

Ok, Brittany, no more.

The end!